Curiosity on the eve of thirty-eight

1. How can this number count and speak
2. diversely echoing things?
3. How does my life weave together
4. through loops and stitches in the air,
5. invisible dances within the mind?
6. How can I decide
7. if a cost affirms a choice
8. when its searching dove is wearied
9. and returns with emptiness, instead of ground?
10. How will I celebrate my gain, my loss, and the unknown?
11. How do I learn to pace with patience
12. around my aerie and daily keeping
13. eggs that hold experience and self-determined hatching?
14. How can repetition be the salve and balm
15. to ease the passages through time?
16. How does this wandering soul choose
17. which way to go or estimate expense?
18. How can all my paths end up
19. at their beginning, me beside myself
20. and calling to the wild?
21. How do words I spoke so long ago
22. in desperation, come back wiser to me now?
23. How do I love with fervor I remember
24. when a murder gathers to remind?
25. How do I find the missing words
26. to assemble what I feel?
27. How is reconciliation found
28. if parties languish in desire?
29. How does a parent
30. whisper to a child
31. with words of wonder and of horror
32. while looking at the clouds?
33. How do immortal roaring storms
34. elect their day to calmly slip
35. behind the night and wait
36. while their wearied child wobbles down
37. and down until assuaging dreams reply—
38. time to wake, to stand, and roar upon your own?